It's not easy, you know, to fill the void left by people who leave you without giving you any closure. Happy or not, we all deserve an 'ending' to our story. But what happens when the story just ends without an ending? It's like, you were on a journey, you had your destination right in front of you, and suddenly, your car just stops there. You cannot go any further than that, you cannot go back, so all you can do is wait... wait for some help to arrive. You are looking at the engine of your car, wondering what could go wrong? The fuel is okay, you recently got an oil change, there aren't too many miles on your car, it's a decent model. What happened? You're just standing there, while your car has left you hopeless. I am not saying humans could be compared to machinery, but I swear to GOD, humans aren't any less unpredictable. They change with the speed of light, or even faster. They are always in the search of "better". Once their need if fulfilled, they'd want something else. Humans are strange. Their very definition of loyalty is an "animal". What can you expect, really, except for the fact that people change. They change for the good, bad or just for the sake of it. Most humans don't even make their decisions for the sake of humanity, or the Divine. Their decisions are selfish, self-centered, complicated, and sometimes horrendous. Does it justify people leaving other people? Of course not. No matter how hard you beg, how many nights you pray, how often you cry shouting their name, they just don't come back. It's difficult. It's ridiculous. But it's the truth. People leave. It's the absolute reality.
The only closure you can give yourself is, "this is how it was meant to be".
Up there, in the heavens, or the seven skies, somewhere, there is a book. In that book, your life story is written by the best of all writers, the CREATOR himself. HE is The Most Merciful. HE is THE ONE and ONLY, deserving of all worship. The pens are withdrawn, the pages of that book are dry, it's all written up there. Whoever leaves a gap inside you unfairly, would pay for it eventually. Whoever is meant to fulfill that gap, would come to you at a time, when you'll be able to give that person your 100%. When you'd have moved on so well, that your mind, heart and body would synchronize for the sake of happiness and love. You wouldn't have regrets, or thoughts about your past. It's okay to be on a verge of giving up sometimes because the loneliness is killing you and you see every single person finding their soul mate. But have you ever thought that the ONE who loves you seventy times more than a mother could give you any less? HE, the ONE who has authority over the whole universe, would be unfair to you? Of course not. As much as those who have been blessed today are HIS creation, you are too. HE is just testing you today to bless you with the best, tomorrow (Insha ALLAH!)
Tonight, just give your gloom an ending. Give yourself hope, encourage yourself to move ahead without ever giving any heed to your past. Tonight, just tell yourself, you'll be blessed with better than what has been taken away from you. Tonight, give yourself a chance. Tonight, tell ALLAH that you're thankful, you feel blessed and content. Tonight, thank HIM for letting you stay strong, no matter how many times you were about to give up. Tonight, thank HIM for not letting you send that "message" or make that phone call which could have destroyed all your effort. Tonight, thank HIM for not letting your greed or need take over you. Tonight, just thank HIM for being alive and in the best possible manner.
Tonight, just be thankful for everything.
May ALLAH be with us all.
- Maryam
The only closure you can give yourself is, "this is how it was meant to be".
Up there, in the heavens, or the seven skies, somewhere, there is a book. In that book, your life story is written by the best of all writers, the CREATOR himself. HE is The Most Merciful. HE is THE ONE and ONLY, deserving of all worship. The pens are withdrawn, the pages of that book are dry, it's all written up there. Whoever leaves a gap inside you unfairly, would pay for it eventually. Whoever is meant to fulfill that gap, would come to you at a time, when you'll be able to give that person your 100%. When you'd have moved on so well, that your mind, heart and body would synchronize for the sake of happiness and love. You wouldn't have regrets, or thoughts about your past. It's okay to be on a verge of giving up sometimes because the loneliness is killing you and you see every single person finding their soul mate. But have you ever thought that the ONE who loves you seventy times more than a mother could give you any less? HE, the ONE who has authority over the whole universe, would be unfair to you? Of course not. As much as those who have been blessed today are HIS creation, you are too. HE is just testing you today to bless you with the best, tomorrow (Insha ALLAH!)
Tonight, just give your gloom an ending. Give yourself hope, encourage yourself to move ahead without ever giving any heed to your past. Tonight, just tell yourself, you'll be blessed with better than what has been taken away from you. Tonight, give yourself a chance. Tonight, tell ALLAH that you're thankful, you feel blessed and content. Tonight, thank HIM for letting you stay strong, no matter how many times you were about to give up. Tonight, thank HIM for not letting you send that "message" or make that phone call which could have destroyed all your effort. Tonight, thank HIM for not letting your greed or need take over you. Tonight, just thank HIM for being alive and in the best possible manner.
Tonight, just be thankful for everything.
May ALLAH be with us all.
- Maryam
Hey girl... thank you for writing these beautiful thoughts down. Even I think on similar lines, thank you for validating my thoughts. I got some strength in me to be better.
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