Friday, July 5, 2013

It's the matter of one hug!

Bad times are an inevitable part of our lives. No matter how happy we are, there are times that make us gloomy or depressed. Bad days; when minutes seem like hours. One's heart beats at its slowest, everything around one seems to be stuck and with all the effort put, life still seems stuck. In simple words, when one is down due to life's circumstances, it feels as if there is no way out.
Tonight, as I sit here writing, I can tell you very  honestly, my head had been hurting for two hours due to some stress in my mind. I couldn't talk about the stress to anyone due to my own insecurities and embarrassments. But I knew, I needed a way out of it. So, I started watching a movie. "Wake Up, Sid!", probably the cutest and one of the most motivational movies I have ever watched. The movie had always given me one feeling; not everyone is a happy-go-lucky person. For each one of us, life has different plans. For Bill Gates, fate decided for him to earn so much, for give back as well. But for Steve Jobs, fate had a completely different plan. Even in one family, every child  has different interests, different likes and dislikes, and most of all, different destinations. Some reach them, while some keep trying, till the very end. But what is that one force that keeps us all going, is the question. What are the reasons behind us never giving up in our lives? 
As a person, who has been through the phases of what some people may refer to as 'depression', I can say, it's the force of love and affection which makes you so strong that you can overcome any difficulty in your life. As I was watching the movie, my mother entered the room to wake me and my sister up for the morning prayer. She had no idea that I was already up. So I got up from my bed, and ran after her, to hug her tightly. This hug was priceless. My headache, my worries, my weaknesses - all seemed to be gone in no more than a second. It felt like heaven. My mother, the woman I have always looked up to as a beautiful, amazing role model. My mother - who is more than just an angel for me - is the force that keeps me walking. 
I have made my set of mistakes. In some days, I messed up in such a ridiculous manner that even looking at my own face was impossible for me. But there was mom. Who told me I had the prettiest face. She gave me the confidence to stand in front of the world with a belief that despite of all the bad times, I can still be happy. Her faith in me made me a stronger, a better person each and every day. It still does and may it always do. 
It's her one hug, which makes my worst day absolutely beautiful. It's her affection that keeps me going. It's my mother, who has  kept me alive throughout my life! 
For me, it's my mother's hug that keeps me strong enough to face each challenge in life. For you, it could be anyone. Never underestimate those people who make your life better. Because without these small gestures of love, life is nothing but some paperwork and sleep! We all must learn to appreciate the value of hugs, smiles, little gestures to show our loved ones how much we care about them. As life is unpredictable. Today, you might get a chance but tomorrow, life might be too cruel to you. So take the opportunity today. Give your mom, dad, a sibling, your best friend, or your life partner a gift, hug or just a simple 'I Love You'. Make them feel better, who make your life better!

- Maryam!

Thursday, July 4, 2013

It's never too late!

Today, I decided to sleep earlier than my normal routine; sleeping at 7 in the morning. I lied on my bed at 1 and by 1:30, I was in my dreamland. A while later, I woke up to a horrible dream, rather nightmare, which made me feel so lost and scared that the only words which came out of my mouth were Ayat Al Kursi and Durood Shareef. I was terrified. But relieved at the same time that the dream wasn't real. Though I must say, it felt more than just real. I could hear the voices, feel the other people's existence. I could even sense my own depression in the dream and knew exactly what to say and how to say it. 
Yeah, I wouldn't be sleeping early for a while now, but what I learnt from this experience is; it's never too late to go back to being who you truly are. It's never too late to repent. As ALLAH Subhan wa ta'ala is always there, despite of your mistakes, your sins, your own oblivion towards HIM, HE never forgets you. HE is always there.
As mentioned in the Holy Qur'an: فَاذْكُرُونِي أَذْكُرْكُمْ وَاشْكُرُوا لِي وَلَا تَكْفُرُونِ. البقرة 152
"Therefore remember Me. I will remember you. Be grateful to Me and never show Me ingratitude" - Al-Baqarah 2:152 

It's the matter of being thankful towards HIM to indeed feel blessed. One day I remember being truly upset, and somebody told me,"ALLAH Loves you! You shouldn't be upset." That made me feel like the strongest person on the planet. As if there was nothing which could harm or hurt me. I was astonished, yet relieved at the same time. 

I have decided to start writing once again and hoping to continue it for good. May ALLAH, The MOST Merciful, protect us, bless us, and cover us all till and on the judgement day, ameen. 

- Maryam!