Make Me Strong!

Embarrassments, Depressions, Desperations, Regrets, Heartbreaks, Failures... Who among us hasnt faced any of this? None. 
All of them combined, every moment of embarrassment, every second we spend in depression, everyday we felt desperate or regretful of something that happened in the Past, every time someone broke our heart or failed us, we get a group of; Mistakes!


No Human has ever been perfect. Since the days of Adam (Alaih Salam), humans have always acted in ways that weren't right. This creation of ALLAH Almighty has always been the one that disobeyed HIM, no matter of the knowledge it had. Adam (Alaih Salam) was ordered to not eat that 'one' apple, but he got distracted, and ended up doing something which he was forbidden of. He later regretted it, asked ALLAH, The ALMIGHTY, to forgive him, and ALLAH, The MERCIFUL, did forgive him. 


Mistake; An error or fault resulting from defective judgment, deficient knowledge, or carelessness. 
Mistake is that action, which does not give the correct result, but happens due to the poor knowledge, a misunderstanding or simple careless behaviour of someone. And they give us the emotions of negativity; Embarrassment, depression, regret etc. 
Every human goes through that moment, or a couple of moments, when he feels regretful of what he did or said in the past and cannot help but kneel down and, as tears roll down his eyes, say,"I am sorry." 


Even the most heartless, most harsh people who have committed the worst of sins, or crimes, have been observed to contain the feeling of regret. An uncle of mine, who was quite a rich man, left his job because it was not 'Halal' according to Islamic Values. Lived a life hand-to-mouth after resigning from that work. But as he passed away, the feeling of satisfaction was apparent on his face, as someone who dies as a Martyr. May his soul rest in peace!


I am not stating the concept of making mistakes and rejecting it. What I really want to tell myself, and people who might read it, is.. that as humans, we do make worst of the mistakes. We all have committed those sins that may feel good at the time, but later in life, you cannot do anything but call yourself an 'idiot' for that certain act. And that's where the belief and faith of "I am sorry" comes in!


ALLAH, THE ALMIGHTY, is always there. HE sees us, 24/7, and HIS angels are recording everything we do. We are sometimes so afraid of an act to be seen by anyone or the public. We keep or 'privacy' levels extremely high. But howcome we never realise that there is our LORD, from whom we can never hide? We are so worried about our mother knowing about a certain status update. We are always concerned about a certain 'page like' being seen by our sibling(s). We just cannot tell anyone in the family about that one curse word, or gossip, we learnt from school or office. But how come we forget that ALLAH The ALMIGHTY is ALL-Listener, ALL-Seeing? HE created us. HE sees, hears, knows of every little moment we spend in prayers, in sleeping, in crying, in smiling, in hating, in loving. HE, THE OMNIPOTENT, The OMNIPRESENT, Is always there and knows what are we upto next. 


As mentioned in Qur'an,"We are nearer to him, then his jugular vein. (Sorah Qaf(50): 16." 
ALLAH knows everything we write in the inbox of our Facebook. ALLAH knows everything we chat about in our IMs. ALLAH knows everything we think about, while talking to any body. HE knows whom we love, hate, despise, respect truly, or care about fakely. 
HE knows when our tears are true, and whenever our smiles are hypocrite, HE KNOWS. 
HE knows, when we bow infront of HIM for the sake of HIS existence, for HIS love, or just in the fear of Hell-fire. HE, The ALL-KNOWING, knows everything. 


Every single moment of regret, every little second we have spent worrying about something we did wrong, and have absolutely no clue on what to do next, is the feeling that needs us to bow down, and just forget the world.




In the case of ALLAH, The ALMIGHTY, things are different from the rest of the world. Its just the matter of one little tear that comes out of your eye, and when you ask HIM... HE doesnt answer you back by 'You hurt me..' Instead, HE knows you never meant to hurt YOUR CREATOR. You were just distracted by a mere feeling or most probably you were driven by your emotions or Shaitaan in you. When you bow infront of HIM, letting go of all your past, and begging HIM to forgive you, HE forgives you! "WALLAHu Ghafoor-ur Rahim" - Al Qur'an.
ALLAH is ALL FORGIVING, ALL MERCIFUL! HE never lets you down. HE knows whats the best for you, and sooner or later, HE does it, for you. 


Deep inside, we're all struggling. None of us lives an easy life. None of us is all-the-time-cheered up. And most of us are even striving to pass every day's challenges, facing them with every piece of bravery we have inside. We do wrong, all the time. We are not thankful, a lot of times. We get distracted, and even forget how truly blessed we are. But there comes that one moment, when things seem to fall apart and we have to say,"I am sorry, ya ALLAH." 


And when that moment comes, it seems like nothing in this world matters. Every human we ever committed a crime with, was as insignificant as the mistakes we have made. We believe, and truly know, that ALLAH is listening and seeing us and would not, at any cost, reject the apology note we are sending to him. The best part is, you dont need to send an online or offline note to ALLAH! All you need to do is, clean up yourself, stand on the Prayer Mat and say,"ALLAHu Akbar" and you will know that very feeling is... everything you ever wanted. 


One tear of 'tauba', today, is far more better than shedding countless tears of reject and hurt, tomorrow. Leave it on ALLAH, because if things are meant to be, then they would make their way towards the right destination themselves. If ALLAH has written it for you, it would come to you in the least of expected times. If you're worried about an exam result, just put all your efforts in the preparation, and leave the rest to ALLAH. If you're concerned about the health of your loved one, just believe that ALLAH gives pain to those HE loves. And in return, HE forgives a tons of sins. 
If you're worried about a relationship, ALLAH knows what and who is the best for you. Don't forget that if you're ALLAH's creation, so is the other person. And both of you, would know one day, if ALLAH wrote you in each others' fate or not. 
If your CREATOR has written a certain blessing in your fate, you would not have to cry and shed a thousand tears on it. If ALLAH considers it best for you, it would happen, eventually. 


Do not be impatient. Do not be afraid. Do not fear anything but the wrath of ALLAH. Do not rely on anyone but ALLAH. He would save you, from every trouble, every calamity, if HE intends to. Do not expect anything but ALLAH's blessings, for HE knows, whats the best for you and your given situation. 


And believe one thing. ALLAH has always Tested his Believers. Tested them so hard that they could feel the pain hitting like a thousand swords. But, none of the believers, the true ones, ever break down. They keep their faith intact, strong and make sure that whatever they are facing is from their LORD to test their Imaan (faith) and make them more strong, so it wont be hard for them to accept the challenges of life, later. 


ALLAH, would never fail you. Rely on HIM, ALLAH would never leave you. For HE loves us, Seventy times more than our own mothers. Ask ALLAH to make you strong, and HE will! Ask ALLAH to make you brave, and you will see that coward in yourself running away so far as if it never existed. 


Have faith in YOUR CREATOR, in ALLAH, and you will get everything to make you happy, satisfied and contended! InshaALLAH! Believe in yourself, in your Imaan, and eventually, everything will be all right :)

“And certainly, We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad
 tidings to as-Saabireen (the patient ones). 
 Who, when afflicted with calamity, say: “Inna lillaahi wa Inna Ilaihi Raaji’un (Verily to Allah we belong and verily, to Him we shall return).”
 They are those on whom are the Salawaat (i.e. who are blessed and will be forgiven) from their Lord, and (they are
 those who) receive His Mercy, and it is they who are the guided-ones.” (2:155-157)